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Woke up way too early this morning. Maybe excited for the AIESEC elections. Time to pass down the throne, time for new breath to fill in, time for a new level of continuity and improvements, time for more passionate leaders to lead and develop. Year by year, many other leaders and i took up the challenges, challenge to keep the promise of commitments, challenge of leading and developing, challenge to improve the organization and ourselves.

The memory of my first step into the new world is still so fresh and vivid, without any expectations or knowledge of what lies ahead, i boldly went for the Recruitment Drive and Interaction Night 2004 alone. Staring at the people amazingly, confidently in their power suit, running the event so professionally and enjoying themselves doing some silly moves while cheering and dancing. Never ever cross my mind that these silly things that i was laughing about turn out to be a part of my life especially through out the years in university.

Being rather an outcast and literally challenged in chinese language, i finally felt a sense of belonging when i actually took another step into this new world. Never did i thought that my life would be so different when i only thought that university life is just gonna be only about studies. Attending one weekly meet after another, although failing to get my first few friends in university to join me in this journey, i made new friends, friends that turns out to be so dear to me, friends whom are so different in my eyes. Although we could say now that we are all just wackos but deep down in my heart i acknowledged and feel much gratitude for their unconscious doings that have inspired me. Maybe i have difficulties in expressing to them, maybe they didn't really know but i do cherish them.

Xcapade (Local Leadership Development Seminar) 2004, a camp for newbies as we call it to know and discover more about AIESEC, the first pitfall, tumbling further into this new world that i now cannot get rid off, experiences and journey that was, is and will still be a part of my life. And recently in 2006, i am a part of the organizing committee, working with a group of amazing and dedicated people to organize and run this amazing journey of experience for the new members. Not as easy as i thought but definitely another experience and eye opener, another phase that elevate my passion.

Back then, the first step in taking up commitments and leadership position was another amazing project that was initiated back in 2003 for the underprivileged children, touching their hearts and mine while making a difference in their lives as well as mine. I still remember, how sharon and i used to hang around in coffee beans or nearby cafes to fulfill our commitments to create an awareness of this project named Young Visionaries. 3 years down the road, 2007, the project has evolved into a larger scale, bringing more changes and differences in lives of those involved and the world. Looking at the kids performed on stage in the concert initiated this year, i was amused and impressed. Staring into the innocent eyes of these children, gazing at their smiles, made me realized and appreciate my own personal life. There is so much in these kids and yet many not even aware or maybe not bothered by the fact that all these kids are just like their own siblings or children or just like ourselves.

Flash backs keeps on playing in my mind, vividly seeing every inch of step in this journey. Rain or sunshine, disappointed or inspired, mistakes or the right doings, it all comes in a wholesome package, a package that definitely has develop me from just a naive and childish girl into a woman, a better person whom sees things differently now. Would never forget the words of inspirations that made me tear, incidences that challenged my view, friends from various backgrounds and personalities, friends from different batch whom are just truly fantastic and unique. Realizing how i have developed and looking at my dear babies developing, i am touched and thankful, thankful that i had the opportunities to know this organization, this group of wonderful people.

Today, attending the elections, sitting right there listening and voting the few whom took up the challenges, inspired and touched me deep down inside. Waking up early, flashing back on the journey that i have i been through, made me realized that i have not have enough of AIESEC yet. Although this term is officially ending soon, although i am graduating (hopefully) this year, i made a pledge to still contribute and be there as much as i could. Personally, whether i get my scholarship to UK for my masters or not, i would still be a part of AIESEC may it be locally or internationally. AIESEC has been a part of my life, is still a part of my life and will still be a part of my life regardless of where life brings me to.

AIESEC is without a doubt one of the most amazing experience and highlights in my life so far.
Not forgetting the wonderful and dedicated individuals that have cross my path through this organization. Every single one of you made a difference in my life. The woman that i am today and in the future is definitely the results of your supports and inspirations. Thank you so much my dear friends. I am really sorry if i have made you unhappy or offended you in anyway, do accept this sincere apologies from the bottom of my heart. Without you and without AIESEC, i would not be who i am today. :)

uPdAtEs!!!

been really really long since i last update... wanted to blog one of the nights before but internet was kinda faulty...
well... so much been happening....

Chinese New Year...
well, basically chinese new year was kinda fast... jammed all the way back to Penang.... drove for hours and hours... then in a twinkle of an eye i am already back in kl... been taking pictures like i will never be able to anymore... had this funny feeling, fearing that i would not be able to celebrate it next year... would be missing all the food and everything...
Then back in kl... as usual... every year routine... would have a day of house visiting with the old high school group... started rather early bout 10am... supposed to be 9am... but as usual... malaysian timing... and as usual my house would be the last stop... where everyone can gamble and have booze till wee hours in the morning... but this year was rather quiet.... the group shrunk and there were only few of the regulars... but it was still great to be able to be with this group of regulars... meant alot to me... mum made many of them drink... no one was really drunk this year... which is a good thing... lol...
Then right before chinese new year ends... we had a primary school friends gathering... just a few of us actually... many were missing in action... well.. although it was only a few of us... it was really great... one of the time that i really appreciate... talking and gaying all night long... remembering all the old stories and all the old folks... Never thought things would be so great... some have not met for bout 10 years... and still we could remember and click... 10 years long lost and now reunited... how else more could things be better? i wouldnt ask for more...
another group of friends reunited... and more for me to appreciate... just shows me somehow or rather, life is still beautiful...

Besides that, went back for taekwondo training and realized that i am rather soft and totally not in shape... then went for a hike with sir and one of the gurl... well..was kinda bad... head was spinning with dizzyness and stomach was cramping with just a few steps up... tried to go on still.. up a few more steps... i had to sit down.... well... not wanting to let the others down, i asked them to go and told them that i will rest for a while then hike up slowly myself... was kinda funny... sitting there all alone in the middle of no where... was actually rather soothing and comforting despite the spin... the sound of birds chirping with the view of a bird, scent of the fresh dew.... it was just wholesome... and people there are really friendly... many passerby drop by to see how i was doing... one of the uncle was really helpful... he handed me some oilment for the spin and a bar of food for energy... after the rest... i slowly hike up alone... was kinda doubtful along the way... but still pulled myself together to hike up the steep stones and slipery roots... and it was not like the usual hike where it's more like a casual walk up the hill... i had to climb up steep rocks... half way through i met the rest on their way down... we then went down together... another challenge.. getting down the steep rocks... forcing all the leg muscle to hold strongly to have a firm stand... and the dizzyness came on again.. had a slow hike down... and when i finally reach the end.. i was totally spinning and had to close up eyes and rest in the car... when i reached back, i then realized that it was my menstruation that came unexpectedly... causing lower blood pressure and cramps... well... altough i did not manage to hike all the way up, it was still great... a step of conquering the pain every month that causes me difficulties to even walk sometimes...

After all that, i am back in uni... loaded with tonnes of assignments and to do's... kinda stressed up and sicky... and the mind is constantly on to something.... well.. all in all, its only two more months and i am gonna be FREE for a while.... Yay!!!

well.. this time around it is only a casual update... something for me to remember as well....
not much pondering... maybe i havent been giving myself much time to ponder too much....
well.. till then....