bEaUtY iN dIsGuIsE?!?!

Reality of life in human relationships;
Some people will love you, some people will dislike you...
Again another part of experience in life, another differences that happens in life...

Most people are affected by the fact of people disliking them...
Some would be trapped in between...
Nevertheless, concentrating on this fact would bring one no where...
Wondering why?
Trying to please both parties?
Trying to redeem yourself?

Like what said...
dIfFeReNcEs MaKeS tHe WoRlD wHoLeSoMe!!!
LiFe Is BeAuTiFuL wHeN yOu LeArN tO sEe ThE bEaUtY!!!

My humble opinion,
1. Thank God for this happening...
If everything is perfect, then what is life? you are blessed with another experience... another thing in life that you can learn although things is though/difficult...
EXPERIENCES are the GREATEST TEACHER in life!

2. Appreciate the emotions that you are feeling...
It is a blessings that you can have emotions and you can feel all the feelings that you felt... Shows that you are still alive.. that you are a human... allow yourself to feel every emotions although is hurting or aggitating...
EMOTIONS are the STRONGEST ASSETS in life!

3. Accept the fact of differences. (One being disliked and disliking)
Everyone is different. Some may dislike you, some may envy you, some may not be comfortable with you. Vice Versa!
Be honest... you do feel different about different people...
Simple example... Every part of your body is different..
fingers-middle finger is longer than the rest of your fingers,
upper body and lower body-some are proportionate some are not..
somehow or rather everything is different, even some parts you personally dislike...
but when looking at yourself as the whole, you accepted all the differences even the ones you dislike...
you still dress up, step out and go on with life...
Be at peace with yourself and the differences...
Why not channel you FOCUS/ENERGY to something more FRUITFUL?HAPPY instead of locking yourself in depression of redeeming?

4. Follow your heart. (One torn between parties)
There is no right or wrong in human relationship. Its your own choice and decision in chosing and wanting to have relationships with the people you chose, people you are close to, people whom you respect, even the people you allow to hurt you...
Anything that happens to you is your own responsibility although its concerning others...
There is nothing to explain, nothing to clarify... Appreciate those who are around you...
Differences is the blessings that you get to experience...
Why not channel your energy in MAKING THE BEST of both instead of jailing yourself in depression of merging both party or pleasing either party?

food for thoughts;

YoU aRe ThE mAsTeR oF yOuR oWn LiFe!!!
trust yourself... trust your instinct... follow your heart...

ChAnGe BeGiN wHeN yOu TaKe ReSpOnSiBlE!!!
fOr ThInGs To ChAnGe, I mUsT 1sT cHaNgE!!!

eMoTiOnS aRe HuMaN eXpErIeNcE!!!
UpSeTs ArE OpPoRtUnItIeS tO lEaRn ThE tRuTh!!!
allow emotions to come through... acknowledge it...feel it...

hard? easy?
tHe MoSt PoWeRfUl FoRcE i HaVe Is WhAt I tElL mYsElF & i BeLiEvE!!!

p/s: what is writen is only brief...
beep me if you wanna understand more...

hUmAnLy ExPeRiEnCe!!!

iNsOmIa!!!
it's bout 4am now... and still couldnt sleep... for no apparent reason...
well, maybe am not feeling well... just puke... anyhow been feeling a little under the weather this few days...
Funny... Just said to a friend that day.. i am actually okay and it is okay to be sick once a while although sicky is kinda sucky... but, its one of the human experiences... and i am glad that i didnt miss any of it...
There is so much that has been happening lately... lotsa things that i wanna post but ended up unable to... now now... it's not that things are bad... it's good matter of fact...
Just realized that i am wordless lately... lost of words to show how glad i am to have all these things happening... to have all these people in my life... to have feel the things i felt...
I am gratefull till am wordless... couldnt even manage to share every single thing that has happened... too many and great!!
Different people... different situations... more and more sharing...

Am getting more and more phylosophical... ;) dont know wheter is that good or bad... LOL!!
but it helps reminds myself alot and also been sharing alot with my pals...
Everyday wheter things went well or slightly off, at the end of the day somethin would happen to remind me of being grateful and appreciative... And i am really grateful and i do appreciate every single things that has happened and the people i share it with...

Every single step, every single happenin, every single soul that crosses is an experience and blessings...
Good or bad... It is humanly experience...It is the different pieces of puzzle that is matching into place to form a wholesome picture of life...

Been enjoying listening to different experiences of diferent people... Been enjoying observing people... Been enjoying realizing so many differences around...
Many poured amazing experiences to my happy ears lately, acknowledging their humanly ups and downs in life... Many were actually not really happy of some of their experiences...
Most were due to not seing the beauty of differences... Matter of fact many problems that happens between human is related to this... especially in relationships, friendships and human interactions in general...
Learning to see the beauty and accept the differences would help in many situations... ;)
Well, lately this phrase doesnt seems to fail to come out of my mouth...

"DiFfErEnCeS mAkEs ThIs WoRlD wHoLeSoMe"

Anyhow, i am glad that my pals and I are still able to feel and acknowledge emotions and happenings...

"AlL eMoTiOnS aRe HuMaNkInD eXpErIeNcE"

"LiFe Is BeAuTiFuL wHeN yOu LeArN tO sEe ThE bEaUty"

JoUrNeY!!!

Well, another slow yet fast day....
Woke up late... Rushed yet taking it slow to class...
Confused with timetable...
but...
Things turned out great at the end...
Went for lunch with a dear gurl friend of mine... knew her since form 6... it's funny... we got really close just within a short period of time... spend alot of time together... shared many many memories... and, honestly, till today i still feel the same about her... she is one of the most beautiful gurl i have ever known... the way she look, carry herself and also her personality... She has silently taught me alot of things... Helps develop me alot within... till today, i am really amazed by her personality... Hard to find the actual words to describe her... just wholesome... get to know her... you will know what i mean... ;)
Had great conversation with her.. catched up on happenings... planned to meet up at least once a week for lunch... YAY!! and going back to get our STPM cert which we forgotten till now... LOL!!! and miss her hug so much!!! thank you gurl!!!
Then met up with my dear little sister... glad to hear her learning experience... my honour to share some experiences with her... glad to see her developing...
everything happens for a reason... every single step take in life is a step further in the journey of learning...
problems = challenges to push oneself further/opportunity to learn more...
mistakes = learning experience...
Attended the mini program to invite more people to join the money and you program...
Was great that i decided to attend and help out... Reminds me bits and pieces of things that i have learned...
Chatted with a wise man... made me think of some things... and he is really nice and helpful... offered me a lot of opportunities...
funny... dont know what i am feeling right now while writing this... a struggling feeling in me...
Which is good... things that i need to think about... things for me to realize... to achieve further clarity... Some questions that this wise man prompt...
Then a very good guy friend of mine had some problems... Did some sharing session along with another wise lady... I was kinda asking alot of questions to make him think and shared some of my own experiences with him and reminded him and myself some of the things we learned in the seminar...
He is really a great guy filled with so many great qualities in him... Can be really great and successful once he start allowing himself to see his qualities and believing in himself.. Talking to him has actually reminded me of alot of things... Makes me think of alot of things as well...
Then this wise lady told me something that really touched me... She said, she could feel my presence when i stepped into the room for the mini program... And after hearing me, she said that i am a person who could be who i want to be to achieve what i want to achieve in life... she also said that from how i shared and questioned, i could be a motivational speaker... it is in me...
Somehow or rather, i was really touched and glad... nearly teared...
Well, people it is something deeper in clarity of what you wanna achieve in life... it is not wishing...
This program is without any question has helped me and many out there... It helps develop individual individually from within to be the person of who you are and helps you achieve alot of clarity to be the person that you want to be to live your ideal life... It covers everything, business, relationships etc... It's a great journey of learning... great journey of experience... great journey of self-discovery... great journey of transformation and change...
If anyone of you who wants to know more of this... do beep me...
or visit www.excellerated.com
Every single time i share, i learn more...
Every time i remind you, i remind myself...
It is always my honour to be your ear, your friend...
Today, is definitely another journey...

CuLtUrE??? MoRaLe???

Was browsing through blogs and stumble upon sharon's...
and was rather shocked by her entry about this news below...
LOL!! i dont really read newspapers... ;)

it is true as what she questioned..

"what is this world coming to?"

"Whatever happened to 'tali getah' and 'batu seremban' games?"

THE STAR ONLINE

N E W S

Nation Saturday January 13, 2007

Schoolgirls competing to be No.1 in sex game

Other News & Views

A GROUP of female students in a secondary school in Johor Baru are said to be competing among themselves to be the one with the highest number of one-night stands, Nanyang Siang Pau reported.

Each of the 10 students in the group, aged between 13 and 15 years old, would fork out between RM50 and RM100 to be in the game.

The student with the highest number of sex partners within a month would get a “reward”, which ranged from between RM500 and RM1,000, said the report.
Usually, a student would need between 13 and 15 sex partners to claim the “reward”.

It was learnt that the school had expelled some students involved in the activity, but the report added that it was still going on.

well, i dont know how to react and whatelse to say...
Wordless...
Sad...
Seriously, what is the world turning into?... what happened to our roots - culture and morale?

GlAd!!!

Been wanting to blog... Never seems to do so... till today...
A few more unique experience happen... thinking back.. alot of things seems amazing...
On monday, went to uni, wanted to go library to get some books... at the same time went to the post office to send a postcard to US... ;) and past by the blood donation campaign and decided that i should donate blood.. and has been a long time since i do so...
Before this, couldnt really donate due to low blood pressure... so was thinking maybe i could still try... went there alone after getting some books from the library with my gurl... few funny things happen... fear... yet still overcome it... was happy after donating...
then was rather dizzy for a few days after that... went to the doctor.. suspected anemic.. but couldnt be... well... went for a blood test as asked by the doctor in the student's clinic... and guess what... was one of the terrifying moments and it worsen my fear...
After that incident, made a point that i will never go to the students clinic anymore nor will i go to any of the government clinic or hospitals...
But thinking back it is another experience in life... where i have to face my fear to a greater extend... although i cried but i am still in one piece...
Now... the other part of happenings...
Well, met this guy from the US lately... Been getting to know him and been chatting really often.. the same guy i was talking about in the previous post...
Seems like have known him for quite sometime now and seems like we are having more understanding and already planning to meet up...
Never thought in my life i could be in this sitaution.. someone who is far away.. someone who is from the virtual reality realm...
but after much communications.. starting to feel it is more that what i thought.. and this might be true...
Was kinda doubting that he is real.. as in he is not just playing online for fun and so on...
Well, after communicating more... could see that we somehow or rather we have some commitments to get online and spend time with each other..
Well, as they say, the best things in life cant be seen or touched... it have to be felt by the heart...
Meeting him and able to chat with him has brighten up my days... Seems like we are on the same wave length.. and its really fun...
But the funny thing is, as many know i have this magnet only for the guys from the darker shade of brown... and i thought .. okay... should now go for the total opposite.. which is white..as i rarely turn yellow heads around...
and... guess what.. i attracted one from way far and also from the darker shade... LOL!!!
Somehow or rather.. was talking to one of my gurl, told her that ever since really young, i dont really see myself ending up with anyone from the same race or colour... Well, maybe that explains it all... Or Maybe its my destiny...
Well, whatever it is, am waiting for the day now... the day that we are gonna meet and see what happens...
As rough plan for now... in 5 months time... when we are both on break after the finals for this semester... SOON!!!
As for life now, getting better... matter of fact great, fantastic...
realized that more and more of my friends appreciates our friendship and both have the effort to make it better...
Meeting more and more great people.. people from different backgrounds, cultures, places and so on... Its amazing looking at how different people are and how unique and beutiful they are...
Glad with all the blessings that have been showered upon me... all the fantastic, bad or good experience day by day...
Well, to sum up, lately am just happy despite the ups and downs, all the weird things that happened, funny situations and many many more... am glad and thankful...
HaPpY!!! GlAd!!!
ThAnK yOu!!!!

MeMoRiEs!!!!

New year!!
Well, another crazy celebration like christmas... Also with my group of old friends...
Christmas... Genting...
New Year... Camerons...
This time around, 14 of us went up but not all are old friends...
One of the guy brought his girl friend...
The other guy brought his girlfriend and his sister...
The other guy is the younger brother of our old friend... Funny thing is, his brother or sister whom are our old friends did not go...
4 cars!!!
This plan was such an ad hoc plan... Last minute confirmation from everyone... Last minute shopping of food and stuff...
Did the shopping of food last minute, on friday... Was all kinda messup with some misunderstanding... I was incharge of buying the stuff... I only had in mind that i need to grab some food for breakfast and also some extra food for the guys incase that they are hungry in the middle of the night...
Nevertheless, when i picked up one of the girls, she thought that i was gonna buy food for steamboat and also barbeque...
We were confused and rather messed up... Hence, dragged the organizer out and ended up buying food for everything although we argued about some food that we should buy up there and some we should buy here...
Funny... and in between the whole process, we still had time to watch 'a night in the museum'... and ended up delagting the stuff to buy to a few people...
On the same day, was dicussing with a few of us who are going up earlier... and realized that even the organizer didnt know the road up to cameron...
6 of us going up first... None knew the road including me... But for me it is rather easy as i have a walking GPRS (my dad... LOL!!!)... Hence, i told them i will find out and then i would lead...
Then went back home, and asked my dad bout the road and am confident with the directions given... Had never got lost with his directions... If you ask him, i think he can draw a detail map about malaysia... LOL!!!
Then later that night, was supposed to sleep early to make sure i am fresh for a long drive...
Well, ended up chatting till kinda late... Had a very nice and fun chat... this time around with a guy from the US... LOL!!!
I could say, chatting with guys from here and there, is just so different... Maybe its character... Well, yet to bump into a guy from here whom can have such a great chat with...
And the funny but weird thing is... Feels rather hard for both of us to stop chatting and it seems hard to part for a few days...
Well, still i have to drive... So we only ended our conversation abot 3 something...
Then next day, woke up rather early, feeling very excited and bump into him online again...
Well, as usual, got hook on my com for a while... and he was rather upset... but at least we had a short chat before leaving...
Then, met up at one of the girls house, the other driver was rather grumpy... and my stupidity caused his car some scratches... Sorry dear!!!
Well, anyhow started the journey... Initially he was tailing me.. then all of a sudden, he decided to use another road... i was at the point of no turning back...
Next thing you know, he was lost with another 2 girls in his car... LOL!!!
We were so worried and so on about him finding the way, they called saying that they were lost and we tried to direct them...
Luckily at the end, he manage to find the way and met up with us at the sungai buloh rest area...
Very fast drive there... laughing and chatting all the way...
Hmm.. seems like a very long story if i go on and on....
All in all, we had a great celebration...
First night, barbeque and steamboat at the same time... then alcohol.. some guys were zick zacking around.. tunbling here and there.. non stop laughing and hilarious happenings...
Second night, barbeque, steamboat and frying at the same time for dinner... alcohol again... this time i had a good buzzz.... and i was the funny one... LOL!!! off course along with a few more...
Count down only by ourselves... Shouting and screaming ourselves... No one else, no strangers.. only us!!!
Well, although there were some heated arguements, tears running... but all in all, i am glad to have celebrated and ushered in this new year, another year of friendship with this group of friends whom are very dear to me...
Chatted a little more with some of them.. we just realized that some of us had knew each other from standard 1 till now.. which means it has already been 16 years!!!!
16 freaking years man!!! What else can i ask for from friends???
Despite all the differences, despite all the sunshine and rain that we have been through, despite all the arguements, i am glad that we are still friends!!
I could not ask for a better celebration nor a begining of this year...
Well, a brand new year, a new turning point in my life... Had been great so far...
Filled with love, filled with joy, filled with laughter and best thing is filled all the people whom i really appreciate...
I am truly blessed to have my parents, family and more and more friends to share my life with...
Thank you!!
I really appreciate evrey single one of you whom have cross my life... Foot steps will always be a part of me!!!
BlEsSeD yEaR!!!!