-sUnShInE oR rAinStoRm-

We did not vow that there will always be sunshine and roses in our relationship. I guess somehow rather imcomplete if it is only all sunshine and roses without rainstorm.

"Suffering builds character" so said my lovely hubby everytime i face upon challenges.
It has always been a motivation for myself to build more of myself to be the better person that i am.
Never did i know, our heartaches would be so soon around the corner.
A little decision i made, a simple action of what i felt like doing at that point, never have i thought would trigger it.

Now facing at this cross road, i am rather lost. I am still figuring out how to deal with this.
We had finally manage to talk over it, after 2 agonizing days of silence.
Although so, i still feel that there is still distance between us that i have never felt before.
I wonder if he feels the same...

What can i do when it comes to the difference of beliefs?
What will i do to come to a resolutions, non compromising by either party?
What am i going to do to patch this little hole between us now?

Somehow, I felt i was subjected to emotional punishment for decisions that i made as an individual but not accepted by him.
Somehow, I felt that i dont deserve such treatment as i felt i am blamed for taking his feelings for granted even when i did open up to him.
Somehow, I understand that it must have hurt him so so much to be triggered such way.
Somehow, I understand that it takes much of his love to react such way and i am glad that he finally is able to express his true feelings and emotions.
Somehow, deep inside despite the hurt that both of went through i know that we love each other greatly.

But i guess for now, only time would be able to heal.
I guess maybe every single inch of hurt will be flushed away when our skins touch again.
Maybe, just maybe.
However it may be, i am still clear that i do love this man truly madly deeply through sunshine or rainstorm.
My love, my hubby, my bunbun... :)

- tEaRs Of LoVe -

So much feelings and emotions running through my body.
Shivering through every inch of my body.
Tears run down my cheeks as i am writing.
Never have i experience this feeling before.
Never have i tear so much while smiling.
The more love i feel the more tears run down my cheeks.
Then I realized that I am in love till it hurts.

December 2nd/3rd,
The very day that i will always remember.
The very day that we had a surprise birthday party for my love.
The very day that he kissed me publicly in the witness of more than 150 people.
The very day that i seen him tear looking into my eyes.
and it is
The very day that he recites his vow.
The very day that he asked my hand in marriage.
The very day that i first felt love till it hurts.
The very day that i first cried so much for being loved and being in love.
The very very day that he calls me as his wife.

Today, chatting with him over skype, my feelings overwhelmed me again.
So much shared within such a short period of time.
So much to be planned and done for the fairy tale to live.
So much to endure for our very very own happily ever after.
Then i realized how much we have been through together.

This very man showed me so much about love,unconditional love.
This very man has been my story to share that affects so many around me.
This very man brought miracle, love, hope and everything sweet into my life.
This very man supported me endlessly for me to achieve my dreams and beyond.
most of all,
This very man brought me into me.
This very man is my fairy tale come true.
This very man is now my dearest lovely hubby.
and
This very man is no other than Mr Alvin Wee.

Thank you love. Thank you.
I love you.