-sUnShInE oR rAinStoRm-

We did not vow that there will always be sunshine and roses in our relationship. I guess somehow rather imcomplete if it is only all sunshine and roses without rainstorm.

"Suffering builds character" so said my lovely hubby everytime i face upon challenges.
It has always been a motivation for myself to build more of myself to be the better person that i am.
Never did i know, our heartaches would be so soon around the corner.
A little decision i made, a simple action of what i felt like doing at that point, never have i thought would trigger it.

Now facing at this cross road, i am rather lost. I am still figuring out how to deal with this.
We had finally manage to talk over it, after 2 agonizing days of silence.
Although so, i still feel that there is still distance between us that i have never felt before.
I wonder if he feels the same...

What can i do when it comes to the difference of beliefs?
What will i do to come to a resolutions, non compromising by either party?
What am i going to do to patch this little hole between us now?

Somehow, I felt i was subjected to emotional punishment for decisions that i made as an individual but not accepted by him.
Somehow, I felt that i dont deserve such treatment as i felt i am blamed for taking his feelings for granted even when i did open up to him.
Somehow, I understand that it must have hurt him so so much to be triggered such way.
Somehow, I understand that it takes much of his love to react such way and i am glad that he finally is able to express his true feelings and emotions.
Somehow, deep inside despite the hurt that both of went through i know that we love each other greatly.

But i guess for now, only time would be able to heal.
I guess maybe every single inch of hurt will be flushed away when our skins touch again.
Maybe, just maybe.
However it may be, i am still clear that i do love this man truly madly deeply through sunshine or rainstorm.
My love, my hubby, my bunbun... :)