fRiEnDsHiP vS oBlIgAtIoNs

Friendship in my very own dictionary has a very wide aspect. A few fact that i have come to known about friendship are;
1. Friends come and go, only true friend stays despite the distance and obstacles.
2. Some friends called you friends when you have a usage value.
3. Friends, True friends understands and respect each other.
4. There is no obligations in friendship, willingness and heartfulness is the key.
5. Friendship is something beautiful and to be cherished.
6. Friends support each other and elevate each other.
7. many many more... some maybe just my own willingness to do so...

People once asked me, who are your true friends. At one point of my life i didnt know. I realized that i met and know a lot of people, so do everyone else. With the tonnes of numbers saved in my mobile phone and tonnes of name cards kept, i could not find a person whom i was willing to call out in time of need.
A fact about me, i would keep as much friends as i could. I get emotionally attached and closed with new friends very fast. But yet in time of need i couldnt call anyone just shows how much of me i actually let out for people to know. Well, maybe it is my personal barrier.

Somehow, i know my tolerance within friendship is rather high in times of storm. I would keep my promise of being there as much as i can. Just dont take advantage of my softness and tolerance. I have no obligations. I have a right to stand on my own decisions.

*arghh* Don't know why a sudden hold back within me now thinking about friendship. A feel of a little suffocation at times. What is wrong with me? Will i ever have true friends that would accept me as who i am, listening to all my bitching and my dirtiest confessions and yet not judge me?

-looking upon the star wishing for joy and love for every single friend of mine out there. May you be close to me or just an aquaintance, i hope that you are blessed with much love and joy-