i Am WhO i Am!

Another rare occasion. A sudden urge of blogging nonstop.
Mind and emotions are rather messy today.
Initially this entry is intended to sound of anger. An entry of warning. An entry of f**king those b*****ds.
But it seems like my soft points has taken over the anger. My silliness once again locked my own emotions.
Myself blame once again turned the scenario around, feeling that it is my own choice and my own decision, my own fault.
Constant self blame is consuming more and more of my soul.
Self realization - improvements
Self blame - rants and destruction
Seing the distinction, i should be able to start on my improvements rather than go on ranting and destructing myself.

Somehow, i still feel like ranting, i feel like quarantining myself , feel like lashing all my anger and frustration.
I am upset, upset and tired of all the games and conflicts. Tired of all the people whom took advantage of my softness. Upset with all the game of attractions and lust.
Sick and tired of my own stupidity. Sick and tired of my insecurities and fear. Sick and tired of pretending, pretending to be strong, to be bold to be who i am not.
Argh!!!!
Enough is enough.

No more pretending. No more succumbing. No more faking. No more pleasing beyond my boundaries. No more hiding.
I am gonna be who i am. I am gonna allow my own emotions to flow. I am gonna be honest and true to myself.
I am who i am. I feel how i feel. I am the master of my own life.