How Could Anyone

HaPpY hApPy BiRtHdAy To Me!!!

Happy Birthday to me!
Happy Birthday to me!
Happy Birthday to me!
Happy Birthday to me!

Here is another year!
Another year added into my numbers.
Another year Memories and experiences.
Another year of life!

This very year is the year where i have learnt to really embrace my own life. Being really thankful that i am born and still alive till today.

I am very thankful for such an amazing life. Amazing family. Amazing life partner. Amazing friends. Amazing everything!

As the clock touches 12am marking the 3rd of July. For the first time i sang myself a birthday song filled with love. It is really a great feeling when i am aware that i love myself.
And i thank the universe, my parents, alvin (my special life partner), my brother and all my friends.
It is with your love and support that i have grown so so so much. Grown to love myself. Grown to be the woman that i am. Grown to be wiser, smarter and everything that i am.

Last night in toastmasters, there were so many wishes and love. I enjoyed myself truly. Was an amazing night filled with laughters. Thank you all of you who are there. Thank you for sharing the night with me.

And Thank you love. Thank you for staying up just to be the first to wish me on the exact date and time. Thank so so much for loving me and sharing your life with me. Thank you so much. I love you!

And in a while the team is taking me out for lunch. That is so sweet of them. Thank you Team. I am very happy and glad to be in this team with all of you!

Tonight is gonna be a very funny night. My dear miss horse is planning something. She decided not to reveal anything to me but just to make sure i am available. Rumours been flying that there will be egg and flour smashing. There will be pie to pie me. God knows what are they up to. They means ms horse and non other than my lovely hubby who plays a part in plotting this with her... hmm...
I dont even know where, dont know who will be there, dont know what will happen except for the hints around.

Whatever happens, Thank you so much dear for sharing your love with me and taking the effort to celebrate my birthday with me.
Thank you for all of you who are attending tonight.
And thank you for all your birthday wishes! This is to everyone!

Thank you!

I love all of you!!!

i MiSs YoU!!!

I am turning 24 in a day time. Just the perfect time for reflection.
Wanted to sleep early but ended up looking back into the past. Browsing through my pals' blogs, capoeira websites and so on.
A nostalgic feeling overwhelmed me. I miss all of you so much.
Just very last year i took up capoeira & salsa but decided to stop due to laziness to travel down town and also timing.

Somehow, looking back into the pictures i miss my days. Roda and fun capoeira and salsa classes.
Missing AIESEC and my pals as well.
So many fond memories plays through.
Feeling like i have missed out so much.
They who are still there and active seems to be having so much fun.
I want to be a part of it too yet i feel like i am rather outcasted...
A feeling of wanting to belong to them again yet i am not sure if i am still a part of them...

I realized that lately i have been surrounding myself with mainly the money & you and toastmasters group of people and only the girls on sunday for yoga.
Yet there is so many more that i used to hang out with that i failed to keep in contact.
I miss capoeira, i miss salsa, i miss AIESEC...
I miss my friends... My dear pals...

I feel your importance within me. I miss you. I miss those days. I miss our times.
Somehow, failed attempts of catching ups seems to be the trend.
Busyness seems to be keeping us apart.

This feeling of distance is not a very nice feeling.
The feeling of missing you but feeling so outcasted is not very pleasant.
Maybe i should call you more often.
Somehow, i wish upon the stars that i will be able to still hang out with you.

Many ups and downs through the years. Many laughters and tears shed together.
You have carved a deep imprint in my heart.
And i thank every single one of you for being my friends through the years. Thank you for loving and supporting me and keeping me sane through the years.

Just want you to know despite the busyness, despite the distance, despite the difference, I MISS YOU!
I miss you so much and i do think of you.

Just want you to know that you are always remembered and cherished.
and I want you to know that I LOVE YOU!

Thank you very very much for being my friend. :)

I am not your superwoman...

Superwoman
Karyn White

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream

Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me

Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me

We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby

I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you

But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk

You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same

You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman (Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (Hey)
And think that everything's okay (Don't let me down, don't you let me down)
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human, yeah)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token (Ooh, ooh) of love from you to me

Oh, baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me (Oh, no)

If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me

Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me, oh, ho, ho

Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I need love
I need just your love

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (You can let down)
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman

Here i am again...

Here i am again.. Dont know where to turn to. Only to bitch out my feelings alone to keep my sanity.
Feeling so disappointed. Disappointed that actions defies words given. Makes me really wonder, are those words given to make the initial stages happen.. So what after that? As time goes by, reality happens as not what the words uttered. What am i going to do? Am i going to let it be and go on. Or should i depart?

Thoughts of departure pierce deep through. But somehow feeling that staying would only prolong these tears. Vows as spoken, is hard to break but never could i believe that it has already been broken. Broken astral vows that hurts me so deeply. Nothing left for me to say or do. i honoured my words, my actions shows. what else do i need to do?

As many said, maybe you should talk it through. Have i not? Every single time it is to no avail. Justifications and excuses piles up. Even to the least of honouring what we both are incline to is not happening. The room is more important. Maybe i am just a passerby. A passerby that has no value to be honoured at all.

Makes me wonder, wondered for so long. Are we here to complete all the tales from many lifetimes? Or are we here to end all the sufferings through all the lifetimes?
Why? Why are we back here for?

Why do i feel like this? Why are these both ends pulling me apart? Should i take either side or should i just allow to be pulled till i finally break apart? Either side would break me as well. Is there any other road that i can chose?
What should i do?

-pOnDeRs-

You must be the change you wish to see in the world.
-Mahatma Gandhi-

There is no such thing in anyone's life as an unimportant day.

-Alexander Woollcott-

Meditate.

Live purely. Be quiet.

Do your work with mastery.

Like the moon, come out from behind the clouds!

Shine

-Buddha-

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

-Mother Teresa-

If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint,

and that voice will be silenced.
-Vincent Van Gogh-

You are not here merely to make a living.

You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement.

You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand.
-Woodrow Wilson-

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
-Albert Einstein-

Try not to become a man of success. Rather become a man of value.
-Albert Einstein-

Whether you think you can or think you can't --

you are right.
-Henry Ford-

-rAnDom-

In the mood for some inspirations...

We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes.
We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them. -- Mother Teresa

Random story of inspiration and realization yet meaningful...

Unconditional Love - motivating story

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.
"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me."

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of those who are different from us!!!

There's a miracle called Friendship That dwells in the heart You don't know how it happens Or when it gets started But you know the special lift It always brings And you realize that Friendship Is God's most precious gift!

Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.

Touching life story.....

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For
many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's
showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told
him that was all he wanted.

As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited
signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the
morning of his graduation his father called him into his private
study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine
son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son
a beautiful wrapped gift box.

Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man
opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily,
he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you
give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy
book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in
business.
He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his
father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He
had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make
arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had
passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He
needed to come home immediately and take care things.
When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and
regret filled his heart.

He began to search his father's important papers and
saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With
tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he
read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope
taped behind the Bible.
It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the
sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation,
and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss Life's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

a GrEaT mAn WhO fAiLeD hIs WaY tO sUcCeSs...

Simply a classic example of a great man who
failed his way to success!

ABRAHAM LINCOLN'S FAILURES AND A STRIKING EXAMPLE
OF HIS HUMANENESS

He failed as a business man - as a storekeeper.

He failed as a farmer - he despised this work.

He failed in his first attempt to obtain political office.

When elected to the legislature he failed when he sought the office of speaker.

He failed in his first attempt to go to Congress.

He failed when he sought the appointment to the United States Land Office.

He failed when he ran for the United States Senate.

He failed when friends sought for him the nomination for the
vice-presidency in 1856.

Finally in 1860 he was elected as the 16th and one of the greatest presidents
in American history!

Hold on tight to your dreams and remember this wise saying:

"It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out
how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds
could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man
who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust
and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and
comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms,
the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause;
who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement;
and who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly,
so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls
who know neither victory nor defeat."

-Theodore Roosevelt-

fEaR?!?!

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson