bElIeVe

Woke up early although slept very late. Woke up with a call of work, never ending assignments. But what pops into my mind this early morning are my thoughts of life, love. Still feeling the pinch of pain within me, knowing that i am sinking into depression or maybe a start of an act. Acting that i am alright and that i am strong. Still laughing and smiling although deep down inside i am unhappy.

Pondering on life, flashbacks on many agendas in my life, i came to realized that in any situation i am a very emotional person, a girl whom feel for family, people, friends, things, anything at all easily. A girl who is constantly fighting the reality, a girl whom still believe, believe that things are beautiful and life is beautiful. Although knowing that life goes on regardless of anything as long as i am still breathing but is this what i want in life? Just to go on walking through life aimlessly and succumbing to the reality that i am unhappy about?

Although i have plans and aims to achieve certain things in life, in the sense of career. Although i said at the end of my life all i need are my own kids and my life but i know deep down inside, i want to spend my life with someone special, someone whom i can call as my love, the father of my kids and the king of my life. i constantly say that i only need a guy, only one who sees love as silly as i am. Someone whom will go through all odds and never give up. Well, maybe there is no one who thinks naively as i do, no one actually believe in the purity of love, no one believe in sacrificing for love. Or maybe my thoughts are just too idealistic and its only bound within my world, a world that seems different or maybe naive to others.
Sometimes is just rather funny, the career part of my life and the love part of my life constantly seems contradicting. Well maybe i am too idealistic, thinking and still believing that life is all beautiful and everything can be just perfect. Realistically life is not as simple as we all want it to be, life may not be as beautiful.
Funny thing is i still try to fight against that, try to make things simple, try to believe and trust in the beauty of love but somehow or rather it always turns out more complicated. Sometimes i could never understand why things happen, why decisions are made that way and why certain things must happen. Well, i don't know, is it because i really do not understand or is because i choose not to understand?

One thing for sure, as always said upsets are opportunities to learn the truth and the truth in my life is, the constant pain within me that none really understand or should i say know is due to the idealist within me whom wants and keeps on trying, knocking my head into one wall after another to create an idealistic world of mine with everyone around me against the reality. I came to accept the fact that everyone is different, everyone is striving for different things and everyone's definition of a beautiful is just different.

Sometimes i wonder am i too stubborn, am i too childish, am i too selfish? But sometimes i wonder am i really that idealistic when at times i do succumb to the reality which is called as life? Seems like through years, i am developing into a more complicated creature within, a complicated creature that i don't understand or know anymore. I realized that sometimes, my mind and heart could say a certain things, things that is more common and acceptable by others but somehow or rather my actions tends to be different. And this causes more confusion within me, a constant struggle to practice what i preach, a constant attempt to be perfect. Somehow or rather i realized that many of my actions are not understood by others, my intentions are constantly misunderstood and i am always an outcast.

Now i wonder, how ever could i be out there motivating and advising those who came to me when i am in a constant struggle within. How did i actually portray myself to be a confident woman with substance as said my some dear friends of mine and be respected? Are all these fake? Or is it just different elements in my life? The next ponder is do i know what i should do or am i just ranting? But i could not deny anymore that all these and more are a constant struggle within me. There bound to be something that bothers me may it be people, issues, friends, problems, family and a lot more.

What ever is wrong with me? I wonder how could i actually smile, laugh and laugh when i am with others but when i start pondering again, everything just comes out a mess. But i realized that simple things can amaze me, touch me or even make me happy, smile and laugh. I realized that although life has challenged me time after time, till today i still believe, believe in those whom has hurt me, believe in friends and also those who takes me as enemy or uneasy of me, believe in the purity of love and believe that life is still beautiful.

But even if i believe, is it enough? Even if i have what i think i want, would i ever be happy? What is happiness? What is love? What is life?

pAsSiOn Vs LoVe???

Time after time i just wonder, why are my emotions so weak? Why do i let myself fall once after another? Are all these happening meant to make me stronger? Or is it trying to turn me into some one cold? Why the never ending tumbles and pain? At times i wonder, am i a lab rat for one to realized things in life? At times i wonder if i have to be the one hurting for others to be jolly? But it is never easy for either side and constantly hurts both side. Then why the hurt?
Sometimes, i just wonder how could i disregard my emotions, emotions that are so weak comparatively to my stubborn mind and character? Or maybe how could i find the balance between both? Such an irony within a soul.
Now caught in between passion and love, is there such happenings? Do one have to let go of love or passion to gain the other? Is it always a choice in ones life? What ever happen to balance?
Aren't passion and love in life comes hand in hand?
Isn't love suppose to elevate your passion and vice versa?
I realized that i have been more reserved lately, many things are mostly kept inside instead of the usual me of ranting it all out. Wondering why a sudden change within me, keeping all the pain and tears behind my doors. Am i starting to build a wall around me? Am i living my life an act now? Laughing and gaying while it still hurts inside?
What ever happens to the gurl who truly laugh and smile sincerely?
Dear God, can you give me an answer? or even save me from this depression and pain within?

-nOsTaLgIc-

Woke up way too early this morning. Maybe excited for the AIESEC elections. Time to pass down the throne, time for new breath to fill in, time for a new level of continuity and improvements, time for more passionate leaders to lead and develop. Year by year, many other leaders and i took up the challenges, challenge to keep the promise of commitments, challenge of leading and developing, challenge to improve the organization and ourselves.

The memory of my first step into the new world is still so fresh and vivid, without any expectations or knowledge of what lies ahead, i boldly went for the Recruitment Drive and Interaction Night 2004 alone. Staring at the people amazingly, confidently in their power suit, running the event so professionally and enjoying themselves doing some silly moves while cheering and dancing. Never ever cross my mind that these silly things that i was laughing about turn out to be a part of my life especially through out the years in university.

Being rather an outcast and literally challenged in chinese language, i finally felt a sense of belonging when i actually took another step into this new world. Never did i thought that my life would be so different when i only thought that university life is just gonna be only about studies. Attending one weekly meet after another, although failing to get my first few friends in university to join me in this journey, i made new friends, friends that turns out to be so dear to me, friends whom are so different in my eyes. Although we could say now that we are all just wackos but deep down in my heart i acknowledged and feel much gratitude for their unconscious doings that have inspired me. Maybe i have difficulties in expressing to them, maybe they didn't really know but i do cherish them.

Xcapade (Local Leadership Development Seminar) 2004, a camp for newbies as we call it to know and discover more about AIESEC, the first pitfall, tumbling further into this new world that i now cannot get rid off, experiences and journey that was, is and will still be a part of my life. And recently in 2006, i am a part of the organizing committee, working with a group of amazing and dedicated people to organize and run this amazing journey of experience for the new members. Not as easy as i thought but definitely another experience and eye opener, another phase that elevate my passion.

Back then, the first step in taking up commitments and leadership position was another amazing project that was initiated back in 2003 for the underprivileged children, touching their hearts and mine while making a difference in their lives as well as mine. I still remember, how sharon and i used to hang around in coffee beans or nearby cafes to fulfill our commitments to create an awareness of this project named Young Visionaries. 3 years down the road, 2007, the project has evolved into a larger scale, bringing more changes and differences in lives of those involved and the world. Looking at the kids performed on stage in the concert initiated this year, i was amused and impressed. Staring into the innocent eyes of these children, gazing at their smiles, made me realized and appreciate my own personal life. There is so much in these kids and yet many not even aware or maybe not bothered by the fact that all these kids are just like their own siblings or children or just like ourselves.

Flash backs keeps on playing in my mind, vividly seeing every inch of step in this journey. Rain or sunshine, disappointed or inspired, mistakes or the right doings, it all comes in a wholesome package, a package that definitely has develop me from just a naive and childish girl into a woman, a better person whom sees things differently now. Would never forget the words of inspirations that made me tear, incidences that challenged my view, friends from various backgrounds and personalities, friends from different batch whom are just truly fantastic and unique. Realizing how i have developed and looking at my dear babies developing, i am touched and thankful, thankful that i had the opportunities to know this organization, this group of wonderful people.

Today, attending the elections, sitting right there listening and voting the few whom took up the challenges, inspired and touched me deep down inside. Waking up early, flashing back on the journey that i have i been through, made me realized that i have not have enough of AIESEC yet. Although this term is officially ending soon, although i am graduating (hopefully) this year, i made a pledge to still contribute and be there as much as i could. Personally, whether i get my scholarship to UK for my masters or not, i would still be a part of AIESEC may it be locally or internationally. AIESEC has been a part of my life, is still a part of my life and will still be a part of my life regardless of where life brings me to.

AIESEC is without a doubt one of the most amazing experience and highlights in my life so far.
Not forgetting the wonderful and dedicated individuals that have cross my path through this organization. Every single one of you made a difference in my life. The woman that i am today and in the future is definitely the results of your supports and inspirations. Thank you so much my dear friends. I am really sorry if i have made you unhappy or offended you in anyway, do accept this sincere apologies from the bottom of my heart. Without you and without AIESEC, i would not be who i am today. :)

uPdAtEs!!!

been really really long since i last update... wanted to blog one of the nights before but internet was kinda faulty...
well... so much been happening....

Chinese New Year...
well, basically chinese new year was kinda fast... jammed all the way back to Penang.... drove for hours and hours... then in a twinkle of an eye i am already back in kl... been taking pictures like i will never be able to anymore... had this funny feeling, fearing that i would not be able to celebrate it next year... would be missing all the food and everything...
Then back in kl... as usual... every year routine... would have a day of house visiting with the old high school group... started rather early bout 10am... supposed to be 9am... but as usual... malaysian timing... and as usual my house would be the last stop... where everyone can gamble and have booze till wee hours in the morning... but this year was rather quiet.... the group shrunk and there were only few of the regulars... but it was still great to be able to be with this group of regulars... meant alot to me... mum made many of them drink... no one was really drunk this year... which is a good thing... lol...
Then right before chinese new year ends... we had a primary school friends gathering... just a few of us actually... many were missing in action... well.. although it was only a few of us... it was really great... one of the time that i really appreciate... talking and gaying all night long... remembering all the old stories and all the old folks... Never thought things would be so great... some have not met for bout 10 years... and still we could remember and click... 10 years long lost and now reunited... how else more could things be better? i wouldnt ask for more...
another group of friends reunited... and more for me to appreciate... just shows me somehow or rather, life is still beautiful...

Besides that, went back for taekwondo training and realized that i am rather soft and totally not in shape... then went for a hike with sir and one of the gurl... well..was kinda bad... head was spinning with dizzyness and stomach was cramping with just a few steps up... tried to go on still.. up a few more steps... i had to sit down.... well... not wanting to let the others down, i asked them to go and told them that i will rest for a while then hike up slowly myself... was kinda funny... sitting there all alone in the middle of no where... was actually rather soothing and comforting despite the spin... the sound of birds chirping with the view of a bird, scent of the fresh dew.... it was just wholesome... and people there are really friendly... many passerby drop by to see how i was doing... one of the uncle was really helpful... he handed me some oilment for the spin and a bar of food for energy... after the rest... i slowly hike up alone... was kinda doubtful along the way... but still pulled myself together to hike up the steep stones and slipery roots... and it was not like the usual hike where it's more like a casual walk up the hill... i had to climb up steep rocks... half way through i met the rest on their way down... we then went down together... another challenge.. getting down the steep rocks... forcing all the leg muscle to hold strongly to have a firm stand... and the dizzyness came on again.. had a slow hike down... and when i finally reach the end.. i was totally spinning and had to close up eyes and rest in the car... when i reached back, i then realized that it was my menstruation that came unexpectedly... causing lower blood pressure and cramps... well... altough i did not manage to hike all the way up, it was still great... a step of conquering the pain every month that causes me difficulties to even walk sometimes...

After all that, i am back in uni... loaded with tonnes of assignments and to do's... kinda stressed up and sicky... and the mind is constantly on to something.... well.. all in all, its only two more months and i am gonna be FREE for a while.... Yay!!!

well.. this time around it is only a casual update... something for me to remember as well....
not much pondering... maybe i havent been giving myself much time to ponder too much....
well.. till then....

hApPy VaLeNtInEs DaY!!!

hello all,
just to wish all of you out there HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! hope you guys enjoy yourselves...

-luv- all the way from America by ~cutie~

-muax- to all of ya!!!

cute??? the unexpected surprise i mentioned in the previous post... love it alot... my sweet companion every night!!!

Thank you dear!!!

Love ya!!!

well people... do appreciate every little time you spend with the ones you love... Appreciate the tiniest little effort put on for you by your love ones...

Some where out there, people are losing their love ones, missing their love ones...

Today is not only a day of celebrations for your boyfriends/girlfriends... it also goes out to everyone you love... Parents, family, friends...

Start appreciating all the people in your life, everyday can be a valentine...

Thank you to all of you who have been in my life... My dear friends... You guys know who you are!!! Just want all of you to know that I LOVE YA alot!!! every single one of you means alot to me...

cheers!!!

sTaRt ApPrEcIaTiNg!!!

Lets see... A little updates... past weekend was great... fantabulous...
Thurdays night/friday early morning... celebrated be earlied Valentines...
Friday it was one of the gurls birthday... Celebrated in the club... Havent been clubbing for quite sometime... Great party... I finally gotta dance... And was kinda high as well that night... Now muscle aching... LOL!!!
Saturday... Went for the War Crimes, Criminalise war exhibitions... Rather sad and affected by that fact...
Sunday... Took over my senior's taekwondo class for the day as he have to attend the instructor training... Was really fun... Never thought that i still have it although i havent been training... Gotta get my arse back to training...

Well, now for a little thoughts...
First Valentines Day is around the corner... Happy Valentines Day to all my dearest... Every single one of you who have known me, left me and also pass by my life means alot to me... Thank you so much for all the memories that we have been through together... may it be sunshine or rain...
then Chinese New Year!!! Happy Chinese New Year to those who are celebrating it and happy holidays to the rest!!!
For these wonderful ocassions, many of us are lucky enough to be able to celebrate with our love ones, family and friends.
Well, i am thankful that i am able to still able to spend time and celebrate with all the people in my life... As for Valentine, just got a call from a good friend of mine for a bachelor and bacholeretts gathering on the day... Nevertheless, only a few knew that i am seing a special someone... Although some doubt it and some support it, i am still glad... I have already sort of celebrated it before the actual day... A unexpected surprise happen... A huge box was send to my house by UPS from the States... When opened, realized that there were another big box inside nicely wrapped with a message stating not to open till February 14... But plans changed along the way... He recieved my package too and we were afraid that we might not be able to celebrate it together hence, we had an early celebration... spending hours together and also opening each others gift... Never did i expect... It is a really cute and soft pink teddy bear which we could not get it here... :)

Chinese New Year... Well every year without fail my family and i would definitely go back to Penang and Taiping to celebrate it with Family... Well, although Chinese New Year back in hometown now a days are not as fun as before but i am still glad to have my extended family to celebrate with... Besides, i miss all the good and tasty food... ;)
Then when i am back in KL, the old timers would usually organize a whole day house to house visiting and my house would usually be the last stop... Then we would be drinking and gambling in my house till wee hours in the morning... And the other fun part is, mum and friends would usually blend together and have a great time...

Well, most of us today still are lucky and are able to celebrate all these wonderful ocassions...
What about those who are not able to? Those who are unlucky, suffering and oppressed?
After a whole long story above, i dont mean to spoil any mood... Just a little sharing of thoughts of appreciating simple things in life...
As said above, attended the War Crimes, Criminalise War Exhibitions... It was regarding all the wars that happened before and those which are still happening today... Think of the people and childrens in Vietnam, Palestine, Iraq and so on... The ones tortured in the Abu Gharib and Guatanamo Bay prisons... Never to my expectations... simple things that we use everyday could be used as items of torture...

Musics - some were placed in a room blasted with deafening loudness of songs we listen everyday...
Bed - some were hung upside down on double decker bed and some were tied with back pushed hardly towards the steel of the bed...
Electricity-some were electricuted time after time till they faint...
And many many more... Sadly i couldnt attend this exhibition earlier so that i could tell more about it earlier and urge more to go... although i did ask some to go...

The visuals and audio recordings of the situations had a great impact on me... Babies crying, gun shots, explosions and so on... I was really disturb and sad... The situations gave me goosebumps as i walked through different sections...
One of the phrase that caught me was...
"Is this the price to pay for freedom?"
Well, what do you think? drop in and share your thoughts...

The other thing that caught me was one of the:
'Warior Ethos' of the American Soldier today...
"I am an expert and I am a professional. I stand ready to deploy, engage and destroy the enemies of the United States of America in close combat. I am a guardian of freedom and the
American way of life."
What does it mean? drop in and share as well...

There were also many horribly deformed babies and children from all the effects of all these wars... Some children like those in Palestine had to fight for their rights to study... Failing to do so, they had to sit by the roadside to study...
Think back... A lot of us even myself fret on studying... fret on our love ones, friends... fret on the comfort that we have...
My dear friends... let me know what do you think of all these happenings?
If you wanna know more on the exhibition beep me... too much to state all here... Sadly, cameras are not allowed... Would have taken pictures... :(

A little message from the Global Peace:
Enough is enough. Everyday these crimes are committed some where. It could be your home next.
Make Love not War!!!

bLiNdNeSs?!?!

Been wanting to blog... many amazing happenings but kinda busy with lotsa stuff... just something quick here to share...
this is an email that i recieved from a wonderful friend of mine which i though i have lost! Things in life is so amazing and the puzzle seems to all come in place now... and this is a little something that i wanna share with all of you!
take care! Happy Chinese New Year to all who is celebrating it!!! May you have a joyful and prosperous year!!

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always therefor her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can seeeverything, including her boyfriend.Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend isblind too, and refused to marry him.Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."
This is how human brain changes when the status changed.Only few remember what life was before, and who's always been there even in the most painful situations.

Life Is A Gift
Today before you think of saying an unkind word,
Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food,
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife,
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.
Today before you complain about life,
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.
Before you complain about your children,
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean orsweep,
Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive,
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job,
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wishedthey had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another,
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer toone maker.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down,
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and stillaround.

Life is a gift
Live itEnjoy it
Celebrate it
EMBRACE IT
fulfill it

And while you are at it give love to someone today
Love someone with what you do and the words you say
Love is not meant to be kept locked inside of us and hidden
So give it away "Give Love to someone today!"

bEaUtY iN dIsGuIsE?!?!

Reality of life in human relationships;
Some people will love you, some people will dislike you...
Again another part of experience in life, another differences that happens in life...

Most people are affected by the fact of people disliking them...
Some would be trapped in between...
Nevertheless, concentrating on this fact would bring one no where...
Wondering why?
Trying to please both parties?
Trying to redeem yourself?

Like what said...
dIfFeReNcEs MaKeS tHe WoRlD wHoLeSoMe!!!
LiFe Is BeAuTiFuL wHeN yOu LeArN tO sEe ThE bEaUtY!!!

My humble opinion,
1. Thank God for this happening...
If everything is perfect, then what is life? you are blessed with another experience... another thing in life that you can learn although things is though/difficult...
EXPERIENCES are the GREATEST TEACHER in life!

2. Appreciate the emotions that you are feeling...
It is a blessings that you can have emotions and you can feel all the feelings that you felt... Shows that you are still alive.. that you are a human... allow yourself to feel every emotions although is hurting or aggitating...
EMOTIONS are the STRONGEST ASSETS in life!

3. Accept the fact of differences. (One being disliked and disliking)
Everyone is different. Some may dislike you, some may envy you, some may not be comfortable with you. Vice Versa!
Be honest... you do feel different about different people...
Simple example... Every part of your body is different..
fingers-middle finger is longer than the rest of your fingers,
upper body and lower body-some are proportionate some are not..
somehow or rather everything is different, even some parts you personally dislike...
but when looking at yourself as the whole, you accepted all the differences even the ones you dislike...
you still dress up, step out and go on with life...
Be at peace with yourself and the differences...
Why not channel you FOCUS/ENERGY to something more FRUITFUL?HAPPY instead of locking yourself in depression of redeeming?

4. Follow your heart. (One torn between parties)
There is no right or wrong in human relationship. Its your own choice and decision in chosing and wanting to have relationships with the people you chose, people you are close to, people whom you respect, even the people you allow to hurt you...
Anything that happens to you is your own responsibility although its concerning others...
There is nothing to explain, nothing to clarify... Appreciate those who are around you...
Differences is the blessings that you get to experience...
Why not channel your energy in MAKING THE BEST of both instead of jailing yourself in depression of merging both party or pleasing either party?

food for thoughts;

YoU aRe ThE mAsTeR oF yOuR oWn LiFe!!!
trust yourself... trust your instinct... follow your heart...

ChAnGe BeGiN wHeN yOu TaKe ReSpOnSiBlE!!!
fOr ThInGs To ChAnGe, I mUsT 1sT cHaNgE!!!

eMoTiOnS aRe HuMaN eXpErIeNcE!!!
UpSeTs ArE OpPoRtUnItIeS tO lEaRn ThE tRuTh!!!
allow emotions to come through... acknowledge it...feel it...

hard? easy?
tHe MoSt PoWeRfUl FoRcE i HaVe Is WhAt I tElL mYsElF & i BeLiEvE!!!

p/s: what is writen is only brief...
beep me if you wanna understand more...

hUmAnLy ExPeRiEnCe!!!

iNsOmIa!!!
it's bout 4am now... and still couldnt sleep... for no apparent reason...
well, maybe am not feeling well... just puke... anyhow been feeling a little under the weather this few days...
Funny... Just said to a friend that day.. i am actually okay and it is okay to be sick once a while although sicky is kinda sucky... but, its one of the human experiences... and i am glad that i didnt miss any of it...
There is so much that has been happening lately... lotsa things that i wanna post but ended up unable to... now now... it's not that things are bad... it's good matter of fact...
Just realized that i am wordless lately... lost of words to show how glad i am to have all these things happening... to have all these people in my life... to have feel the things i felt...
I am gratefull till am wordless... couldnt even manage to share every single thing that has happened... too many and great!!
Different people... different situations... more and more sharing...

Am getting more and more phylosophical... ;) dont know wheter is that good or bad... LOL!!
but it helps reminds myself alot and also been sharing alot with my pals...
Everyday wheter things went well or slightly off, at the end of the day somethin would happen to remind me of being grateful and appreciative... And i am really grateful and i do appreciate every single things that has happened and the people i share it with...

Every single step, every single happenin, every single soul that crosses is an experience and blessings...
Good or bad... It is humanly experience...It is the different pieces of puzzle that is matching into place to form a wholesome picture of life...

Been enjoying listening to different experiences of diferent people... Been enjoying observing people... Been enjoying realizing so many differences around...
Many poured amazing experiences to my happy ears lately, acknowledging their humanly ups and downs in life... Many were actually not really happy of some of their experiences...
Most were due to not seing the beauty of differences... Matter of fact many problems that happens between human is related to this... especially in relationships, friendships and human interactions in general...
Learning to see the beauty and accept the differences would help in many situations... ;)
Well, lately this phrase doesnt seems to fail to come out of my mouth...

"DiFfErEnCeS mAkEs ThIs WoRlD wHoLeSoMe"

Anyhow, i am glad that my pals and I are still able to feel and acknowledge emotions and happenings...

"AlL eMoTiOnS aRe HuMaNkInD eXpErIeNcE"

"LiFe Is BeAuTiFuL wHeN yOu LeArN tO sEe ThE bEaUty"

JoUrNeY!!!

Well, another slow yet fast day....
Woke up late... Rushed yet taking it slow to class...
Confused with timetable...
but...
Things turned out great at the end...
Went for lunch with a dear gurl friend of mine... knew her since form 6... it's funny... we got really close just within a short period of time... spend alot of time together... shared many many memories... and, honestly, till today i still feel the same about her... she is one of the most beautiful gurl i have ever known... the way she look, carry herself and also her personality... She has silently taught me alot of things... Helps develop me alot within... till today, i am really amazed by her personality... Hard to find the actual words to describe her... just wholesome... get to know her... you will know what i mean... ;)
Had great conversation with her.. catched up on happenings... planned to meet up at least once a week for lunch... YAY!! and going back to get our STPM cert which we forgotten till now... LOL!!! and miss her hug so much!!! thank you gurl!!!
Then met up with my dear little sister... glad to hear her learning experience... my honour to share some experiences with her... glad to see her developing...
everything happens for a reason... every single step take in life is a step further in the journey of learning...
problems = challenges to push oneself further/opportunity to learn more...
mistakes = learning experience...
Attended the mini program to invite more people to join the money and you program...
Was great that i decided to attend and help out... Reminds me bits and pieces of things that i have learned...
Chatted with a wise man... made me think of some things... and he is really nice and helpful... offered me a lot of opportunities...
funny... dont know what i am feeling right now while writing this... a struggling feeling in me...
Which is good... things that i need to think about... things for me to realize... to achieve further clarity... Some questions that this wise man prompt...
Then a very good guy friend of mine had some problems... Did some sharing session along with another wise lady... I was kinda asking alot of questions to make him think and shared some of my own experiences with him and reminded him and myself some of the things we learned in the seminar...
He is really a great guy filled with so many great qualities in him... Can be really great and successful once he start allowing himself to see his qualities and believing in himself.. Talking to him has actually reminded me of alot of things... Makes me think of alot of things as well...
Then this wise lady told me something that really touched me... She said, she could feel my presence when i stepped into the room for the mini program... And after hearing me, she said that i am a person who could be who i want to be to achieve what i want to achieve in life... she also said that from how i shared and questioned, i could be a motivational speaker... it is in me...
Somehow or rather, i was really touched and glad... nearly teared...
Well, people it is something deeper in clarity of what you wanna achieve in life... it is not wishing...
This program is without any question has helped me and many out there... It helps develop individual individually from within to be the person of who you are and helps you achieve alot of clarity to be the person that you want to be to live your ideal life... It covers everything, business, relationships etc... It's a great journey of learning... great journey of experience... great journey of self-discovery... great journey of transformation and change...
If anyone of you who wants to know more of this... do beep me...
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