I am not your superwoman...

Superwoman
Karyn White

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream

Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me

Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me

We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby

I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you

But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk

You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same

You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman (Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (Hey)
And think that everything's okay (Don't let me down, don't you let me down)
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human, yeah)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token (Ooh, ooh) of love from you to me

Oh, baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me (Oh, no)

If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me

Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me, oh, ho, ho

Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I need love
I need just your love

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (You can let down)
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman

Here i am again...

Here i am again.. Dont know where to turn to. Only to bitch out my feelings alone to keep my sanity.
Feeling so disappointed. Disappointed that actions defies words given. Makes me really wonder, are those words given to make the initial stages happen.. So what after that? As time goes by, reality happens as not what the words uttered. What am i going to do? Am i going to let it be and go on. Or should i depart?

Thoughts of departure pierce deep through. But somehow feeling that staying would only prolong these tears. Vows as spoken, is hard to break but never could i believe that it has already been broken. Broken astral vows that hurts me so deeply. Nothing left for me to say or do. i honoured my words, my actions shows. what else do i need to do?

As many said, maybe you should talk it through. Have i not? Every single time it is to no avail. Justifications and excuses piles up. Even to the least of honouring what we both are incline to is not happening. The room is more important. Maybe i am just a passerby. A passerby that has no value to be honoured at all.

Makes me wonder, wondered for so long. Are we here to complete all the tales from many lifetimes? Or are we here to end all the sufferings through all the lifetimes?
Why? Why are we back here for?

Why do i feel like this? Why are these both ends pulling me apart? Should i take either side or should i just allow to be pulled till i finally break apart? Either side would break me as well. Is there any other road that i can chose?
What should i do?

-pOnDeRs-

You must be the change you wish to see in the world.
-Mahatma Gandhi-

There is no such thing in anyone's life as an unimportant day.

-Alexander Woollcott-

Meditate.

Live purely. Be quiet.

Do your work with mastery.

Like the moon, come out from behind the clouds!

Shine

-Buddha-

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

-Mother Teresa-

If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint,

and that voice will be silenced.
-Vincent Van Gogh-

You are not here merely to make a living.

You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement.

You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand.
-Woodrow Wilson-

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
-Albert Einstein-

Try not to become a man of success. Rather become a man of value.
-Albert Einstein-

Whether you think you can or think you can't --

you are right.
-Henry Ford-

-rAnDom-

In the mood for some inspirations...

We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes.
We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them. -- Mother Teresa

Random story of inspiration and realization yet meaningful...

Unconditional Love - motivating story

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.
"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me."

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of those who are different from us!!!

There's a miracle called Friendship That dwells in the heart You don't know how it happens Or when it gets started But you know the special lift It always brings And you realize that Friendship Is God's most precious gift!

Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.

Touching life story.....

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For
many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's
showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told
him that was all he wanted.

As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited
signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the
morning of his graduation his father called him into his private
study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine
son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son
a beautiful wrapped gift box.

Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man
opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily,
he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you
give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy
book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in
business.
He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his
father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He
had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make
arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had
passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He
needed to come home immediately and take care things.
When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and
regret filled his heart.

He began to search his father's important papers and
saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With
tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he
read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope
taped behind the Bible.
It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the
sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation,
and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss Life's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

a GrEaT mAn WhO fAiLeD hIs WaY tO sUcCeSs...

Simply a classic example of a great man who
failed his way to success!

ABRAHAM LINCOLN'S FAILURES AND A STRIKING EXAMPLE
OF HIS HUMANENESS

He failed as a business man - as a storekeeper.

He failed as a farmer - he despised this work.

He failed in his first attempt to obtain political office.

When elected to the legislature he failed when he sought the office of speaker.

He failed in his first attempt to go to Congress.

He failed when he sought the appointment to the United States Land Office.

He failed when he ran for the United States Senate.

He failed when friends sought for him the nomination for the
vice-presidency in 1856.

Finally in 1860 he was elected as the 16th and one of the greatest presidents
in American history!

Hold on tight to your dreams and remember this wise saying:

"It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out
how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds
could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man
who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust
and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and
comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms,
the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause;
who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement;
and who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly,
so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls
who know neither victory nor defeat."

-Theodore Roosevelt-

fEaR?!?!

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson

-sUnShInE oR rAinStoRm-

We did not vow that there will always be sunshine and roses in our relationship. I guess somehow rather imcomplete if it is only all sunshine and roses without rainstorm.

"Suffering builds character" so said my lovely hubby everytime i face upon challenges.
It has always been a motivation for myself to build more of myself to be the better person that i am.
Never did i know, our heartaches would be so soon around the corner.
A little decision i made, a simple action of what i felt like doing at that point, never have i thought would trigger it.

Now facing at this cross road, i am rather lost. I am still figuring out how to deal with this.
We had finally manage to talk over it, after 2 agonizing days of silence.
Although so, i still feel that there is still distance between us that i have never felt before.
I wonder if he feels the same...

What can i do when it comes to the difference of beliefs?
What will i do to come to a resolutions, non compromising by either party?
What am i going to do to patch this little hole between us now?

Somehow, I felt i was subjected to emotional punishment for decisions that i made as an individual but not accepted by him.
Somehow, I felt that i dont deserve such treatment as i felt i am blamed for taking his feelings for granted even when i did open up to him.
Somehow, I understand that it must have hurt him so so much to be triggered such way.
Somehow, I understand that it takes much of his love to react such way and i am glad that he finally is able to express his true feelings and emotions.
Somehow, deep inside despite the hurt that both of went through i know that we love each other greatly.

But i guess for now, only time would be able to heal.
I guess maybe every single inch of hurt will be flushed away when our skins touch again.
Maybe, just maybe.
However it may be, i am still clear that i do love this man truly madly deeply through sunshine or rainstorm.
My love, my hubby, my bunbun... :)

- tEaRs Of LoVe -

So much feelings and emotions running through my body.
Shivering through every inch of my body.
Tears run down my cheeks as i am writing.
Never have i experience this feeling before.
Never have i tear so much while smiling.
The more love i feel the more tears run down my cheeks.
Then I realized that I am in love till it hurts.

December 2nd/3rd,
The very day that i will always remember.
The very day that we had a surprise birthday party for my love.
The very day that he kissed me publicly in the witness of more than 150 people.
The very day that i seen him tear looking into my eyes.
and it is
The very day that he recites his vow.
The very day that he asked my hand in marriage.
The very day that i first felt love till it hurts.
The very day that i first cried so much for being loved and being in love.
The very very day that he calls me as his wife.

Today, chatting with him over skype, my feelings overwhelmed me again.
So much shared within such a short period of time.
So much to be planned and done for the fairy tale to live.
So much to endure for our very very own happily ever after.
Then i realized how much we have been through together.

This very man showed me so much about love,unconditional love.
This very man has been my story to share that affects so many around me.
This very man brought miracle, love, hope and everything sweet into my life.
This very man supported me endlessly for me to achieve my dreams and beyond.
most of all,
This very man brought me into me.
This very man is my fairy tale come true.
This very man is now my dearest lovely hubby.
and
This very man is no other than Mr Alvin Wee.

Thank you love. Thank you.
I love you.

sOaRiNg & FlYiNg!

Lately seems rather unusual.
Not much words writen, just lyrics and songs.
Somehow, the songs sang my soul.
Maybe i lost my words in love. Maybe i lost my words in joy. Maybe i lost my words in all these blessed humankind experiences.
Everything seems like a fairytale right now. Many many new happenings in my life, not only in my lovely love life, it is also in almost every aspect in my life.
I will believe that it all begins from love. I love to love and be love. I love not only my family, my boyfriend, i love everyone around me may it be sunshine or rain.

After a short chat with a friend today, i realized that i appreciate much much more of my lovely boyfriend whom i feel loves me unconditionally truly from his pure heart.
Somehow, listening to her sob i was afraid that somehow someday i will never be able to feel him anymore. I am afraid that this fairytale will end.

I may say this whenever i am in a new relationship.
Well, i would always say that my new relationship is different.
I could not deny that i would say the same phrases as well.
Somehow, he is really a whole new realm in my life. Never have i been pampered, spoiled and love like this before. Never have i love this way, never have i been love this way before.

wIsHiNg ThAt OuR fAiRyTaLe NeVeR wIlL bE eVeR aFtEr!!!

mAsTeRpIeCe
(Atlantic Starr)

A simple touch of your hand,
And everything is right.
The gentle way you look at me,
When we kiss goodnight.
You've given me the freedom no other love has known
And now I thank you girl , thank you girl

The countless ways you've touched my heart
Is more than I can say
The beauty that you've shown to me
takes my breath away
A picture perfect painting, that's what our love is
And yes I need you so, and now I know

Chorus:
ooooh
I've found a masterpiece in you
a work of art it's true
And I treasure you my love
ooooh
I've found a masterpiece in you
a work of art it's true
And I treasure you

Sometimes I wonder what I'd be
Had I not found you
A least and lonely soul this world
could show me nothing new

But now my life's a canvas
painted with your love
And it will always be
And now I see

The two of us together
Through time will never pass
This fairy tale we shared
is real inside our hearts
let it be forever
never let it end
this promise I do make
Heaven is ours to take

Repeat chorus

When I'm lost and insecure
you build me up and make me sure
that everything will be alright
My love

Repeat chorus

This fairy tale we're sharing
is real inside our hearts
Let it be forever
never let it end

yOu, My LoVe Is ThE wInD bEnEaTh My WiNgs!

wInGs BeNeAtH mY WiNgS
(Bette Midler)

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.


Ever since BSE, much has been happening.
I developed much faster than i ever thought.
For this, i cannot deny that you has always been there.
You have always volunteer to be the wind beneath my wings,
without any frets nor frowns.
You have always been so willing and giving.
Thank God for you.
Thank you, my love.
I will never be without you.