LiFe?!?!?! cHaLlEnGeS?!?!

here i am again. Letting go of a person whom i love and care. although the period is short but it seems so long and deep. Funny how life can be. Every challenges that is put forward by life gets more and more weird and though but funny in a way. For the first time in my life i thought that i am finally with someone who is more innocent and better. Someone whom i could rely on and trust. But right from the begining itself it is known that it would not work but yet made a pledge to make the best out of what we have. well, it is not like its all spoiled unless he is not able to face it. Its just that it would never be the same with the different status. But if we never lose anything maybe the friendship, then status doesnt really matters. Maybe its because of what i want. "I love you but i am not ready for a relationship". This is a really sad line yet happy wind to the ears. But it just feel sad that 2 souls who loves each other and falling into each other so deep cannot be together due to circumstances. Questions like why begin when its gonna be like this. It is in a way rather funny when you are already in a relationship then you are not ready for it. Pledge made can be just given up by one soul's decision. Is it selfish or is it for betterment of both? Yet again if one is uncertain wouldnt it be better to work it out together? But other circumstances is put into the situation despite the pledge. Well, despite all this wondering, i am letting go, hoping and praying with all my heart and soul he would be happy and would live the best of life. "I will stand by you darling regardless of anything even if it cuts deep down inside".
Well, another mystery of life. Why? Why would God put two loving souls together and yet not allow them to grow? Is he trying to teach us selflessness? Is he trying to teach us that you have to give wings to love and let it fly?
Personally i learnt that you dont have to own or be together with someone you love. Just being there making the person happy would bring more joy. Why wanna hang on when it is gonna hurt both soul?
Yet the questions always bug me why why would God keep on challenging me with all this? In my love life it has always been a challenge. It is not once or twice but times after times. Am amaze that i still have faith in God. Although fretting, i still believe that there is a blessings in disguise and there is a lesson to learn.
Well,many things in life, we just have to let go. Learning to let go, forgive and forget would make a difference in life. Maybe that is what Life is trying to teach me.
I want you to know i have never regret a single moment that i am with you.
And i was with my pure and true heart towards you and i still am.
Every single moment is carved deeply inside to be cherished, today, tomorrow and for eternity.
What ever happens, i will stay as your good friend and i will stand by you darling!
Open up and live your life to the fullest ok?
Make the best out of it and dont carry regrets with you.
I will be here whenever you need me and i will help you through it.
I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS DO!