bLuRr!!!!!

at a damn blur state.. watched world cup and didnt sleep.... at work staring blindly at the computer pretending to be busy.... been chilling and hanging out till wee hours in the morning... with the exhaustion... couldnt bother much about everything.... all i know.. am not gonna sleep again tonight... after work am heading to the cinema, then club then gamble... hahaha.... am i drowning myself with exhaustion or am i just enjoying myself? couldnt even differentiate myself...
yet again... apart of me still wonders.. dont know wheter to call myself dumb for believing in him or is my instinct true.. keep havng the feeling that he is trying to get me off the relationship for my own good due to his own guilt.. probably he doesnt know how to face me after what we been thru.. i know i did my mistakes as well.. but i believe in the power of love enduring everything...
or probably i am just denying reality and holding on to the beauty i see in him....
anyhow... if it makes him happy.. am glad to let him go... i know for sure in time will be... i know i will strive for what i want in life... have been working towards that direction all my life... through shit and flowers.. i am still standing here today....
from the bottom of my heart, i wish him love and joy... and also to all of you out there....
Life is short, live it to the fullest and dont regret....