LeSsOn LeArNt!!!!

Have been sick lately.... got it all in a package... cough, fever, flu, throat infection, puke, body ache..... probably got it from the change of weather... running around for work... havent been resting enough....
Lately, doesnt seems to miss the song "reunited" playing... Every now and then, it will just play on the radio when i just got into the car...
I remember previously something happen and coincidently the song "let it be" kept on playing and made me think that i should just let things be...
I wonder.. is this a hint or is this just to make me think back and wonder....
A part of me still hopes that this song will come true...
But will it be possible? Even if it is possible.. Is this what i want?
Apart of me feels hatred and grudge... Never had this feeling before... wanting to pull a revenge...
but this is just a small little voice in me that i know i could never listen to... knowing that i couldnt do anything to hurt him anymore... knowing that i dont want to carry a baggage of regrets..
Reflection on life..
Time after time, had never held my ego against men that comes into my life..
Time after time, kept on repeating the same old mistakes..
Time after time, never stood up for myself..
Have always held myself up right with family and friends...
A girl with integrity, understanding, confidence and wacky.... lost it all when it comes to love???
Is it because the natural weakness inside? or is it because i allow myself to be weak?
Mistakes made...Lesson learnt.....
I am who i am... accept me on whole or get on with your life....
I am not perfect but i am learning....
I am not beautiful but i have a lovely heart...
I am but just another girl.. maybe with a pinch....
Birthday coming up.. wonder what will i be doing this year??