LiFe?!?!?

Had a new hair do... thought that this would be a brand new me...
yet... still cannot get rid of the pain... still miss him...
life is so funny.... before this when i was kinda busy.. thousand and one people would call but when free everything just seems so quiet... Just seems like there is no one around... no one to help me go through this....
Guess that the words older people said is just true... no exceptional cases... When your friends needed you, you be there... but when you needed someone, where are there??
A supposed to be a very good friend of mine disappoint me lately... At times i just dont understand what is he trying to do or prove...
When i broke up.. he was nice and had always been there for me.. maybe we because of our past.. he wanted to start again... told me that he is willing to be a replacement for a while trusting me that at the end of the day i would fall in love with him again for who he is...
yet... just a while he has been around... maybe i did not know how to appreciate him....had so many heated arguements with him.....
but soon enough, he does what he do best.. went missing again... after our history.. he appeared and disappeared through out all this years...
yet i thought when he said those words he would stay.... i trusted him and asked for time... time for me to let go... time for me to recover.... told him that i dont want to use him and dont want to be unfair to him....
But i still spend time with him.. even had the initiative to call him.... yet... he will be just him..
Somehow i am begining to doubt him, doubt the efforts he put into his ex.... doubt his words to me....
Probably i should just not bother... Friends will only be friends...
But a part of me still believe in friends... friendship..... Should make a stand now to only keep the friends that are worthy....
Lucky enough i know... my pals who have known me since primary are still my pals.... thank you gals.... love you gals....
ANyhOw... all these its only right of passage.....
Life!!! LIVE LIFE!!!